I met this person, and this person [although this person doesn't know it] is like how I used to be. [mainly feeling sorry for myself and wanting others to feel sorry for me too]. I have come to despise the very person I used to be. It annoyed me that this person was literally asking people to feel sorry for her. I think it annoyed me so much because I could see myself doing the same thing. Then I realized that the feelings of wanting other people to feel sorry for me were almost gone. I might not have realized it if I hand't met this person. I didn't notice a gradual change or anything, it was just like, oh cool, I don't really do that anymore. -and I'm going to try not to.[yes, i will probably still complain about classes because of the sole fact that I probably didn't study enough for that exam, or i forgot to do the homework, or something. I've already found myself doing that. But that's not necessarily what I'm getting at. It's the feeling sorry for myself because I have no one to eat with, or nothing to do on a friday night, or no one is instant messaging me...[just some general examples].
So this is for the people that become frustrated with themselves because they don't see themselves changing: maybe you just don't notice it yet...its like artwork, you don't want to show anyone before you finish it, it ruins the surprise. And God is full of surprises.
